Melissa's Life Journal

I love God more than anything in this world. I am not perfect and mess up from time to time. Though my heart is true and He knows it.

Friday, September 28, 2007

Impossible to Receive

Luke 11:7-8 "Then the one inside answers, 'Don't bother me. The door is already locked, and my children are with me in bed. I can't get up and give you anything.' 8 I tell you, though he will not get up and give him the bread because he is his friend, yet because of the man's boldness he will get up and give him as much as he needs.

There are times that God blesses us because we are His children. he gives us things because He loves us and wants our desires met. Then there are other times that He blesses us simply because we asked. We want things but we never ask because we think its impossible to receive. But God, here is telling us just because we have the boldness to ask, for anything, at any hour, He will give it to us.

God wants me to have the desires of my heart. And He knows all the desires, He just wants to hear it from me. He wants me to stand up for what I want and simply ask Him. When I do that He'll know the measure of how much I want it and not only give me that one thing but even more, as much as I need. Sometimes our wants are less than what we need and we only ask for the minimum but God wants to give the maximum.

Lord,
give me the maximum. My desire is for you to put my life in order and to give me my desires. I want my heart to feel whole again with love and compassion. Allow me to feel you and hear you louder than ever. God I want to see a change in myself and in the lives of those around me. Let the change be fast and noticeable. Be clear with me Lord and show me Your glory. I love you. Amen.

9/27/07 Shake Me

Haggai 2:4c-7,9 'and work. For I am with you,' declares the Lord Almighty. 5 'This is what I covenanted with you when you came out of Egypt. And my Spirit remains among you. Do not fear.' 6
"This is what the Lord Almighty says: 'In a little while I will once more shake the heavens and the earth, the sea and the dry land. 7 I will shake all nations, and the desired of all nations will come, and I will fill this house with glory,' says the Lord Almighty. 9'The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,' says the Lord Almighty. 'And in this place I will grant peace,' declares the Lord Almighty."

For God to shake our world and put it back in better order, we have to work at it. When we work, we have to be strong and patient and believe that God is going to rock us (our lives, the church, ministry) so hard that we will never be the same. God will impart His glory and peace over us but before He does, He has to shake us up. Be fore anything great comes the bad has to be filtered out. Eypt was the worst situation for the Israelites and they thought they would never get out but they had to endure that time to enjoy the land filled with milk and honey.

God doesnt want us to go throught Egypt but we all have to. Life is not full of roses, but its full of reality. God is being real with us and He is going to shake me left and right before His glory and peace fills me again. This is the time of trials and the time of testing my faith.

Lord, shake me. Move me. Change me. Rock my existence so I can get closer to you. I know its easier said than done, but give me the strength to go through anything that is put in front of me. Help me go throuhg it quickly so I can enjoy You even more than ever. I love you. Amen.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

My Heart will Grow

Luke 8:15 But the seed on good soil stands for those with a noble and good heart, who hear the word, retain it, and by persevering produce a crop.

Only God knows our hearts. ANd he knows which heart is led by Him or by the enemy. When there is a heart led by Him than it is a heart that lives according to the Word. When a heart lives by the Word than there will be fruit growing from it.

God wants my heart to grow fruit. He wants me to live by the fruits of the Spirit. When I live by His Word my crop will be love, joy, kindness, faithfulness, gentleness, patience, etc. My heart has to be aligned with the Spirit to be aligned with God.

Father,
search my heart today. This is a time when I most need your help. I ask that you produce good crop in me that others can see and I can stop trying to prove myself. And help chnage the hearts of others. I love you, Amen.

9/24/07 I Trust You

Psalm 84:11-12 For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless. 12 O Lord Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you.

God does many things. He is the one who guides us and protects us. he is the one who holds us up and brings us justice. God is Lord over all and we are to trust Him with all. All in our lives. All in our hears, All in His hands.

When I trust in God with my whole heart than life will bring the blessing. It is only when everything I do is put in His control will He bless it. Only then will He show me that honor and favor and shield.

God,
my trust in put directly in your hands. I want honor and favor and blessings. I want your power to shine like the sun and I need your shield from the works of the enemy. Lord, you know my heart, reveal it to others and show them who I really am and you really are for me. I love you, Amen

9/20/07 No wounds

Daniel 6:22-23 My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouths of the lions. They have not hurt me, because I was found innocent in his sight. Nor have I ever done any wrong before you, O king." 23 The king was overjoyed and gave orders to lift Daniel out of the den. And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.

Daniel was a young guy that both man and God trusted. But even the most noble get accused of wrong doing. Even the most powerful can feel scared in the times of trials. It doesn't say how Daniel felt but I can imagine how he felt when he saw the lions. But his eyes were not focused on the earthly fears but on what God can do for him. Daniel looked at the supernatural world and lived there. His focus was on the things of God, not on the world.

When I trust in God, I will go through trials in life. But in the end if my trust is still in God, no would will be found on me. The lions will come and try to sneak around me then pounce on my body. But God will shut their mouths and bring me out with no wounds. My life has to be spent in the supernatural o be able to see that part of my future. God wants to rescue me from the mouths of the lions.

Father,
Take me out of the lions den. I trust that you will shut the mouths of each lion and will take me out with out wounds. Daniel trusted you and I trust you. Lord. search my heart adn make it new. Make it the way of a noble and righteous person in your sight. Keep me safe in your arms and allow me to come out stronger than ever before.
I love you, Amen.

9/19/07 As a Woman

Luke 2:19 But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.

God chose Mary for a specific reason to carry Jesus. She was a woman who didn't take things for granted and was wise with her words. She put things in her heart and treasured all that God gave to her.

As a woman, to be chosen by God is a huge honor. God knows what he's doing when He chooses specific people. Mary was no exception. She was a woman of obedience, faith, wisdom, and stature. God wants righteous people that will treasure what He's given them.

Lord,
make me into a Mary. I want to be a different woman that is chosen by what I can give. You chose me God and I am grateful. Thank You. I love you, Amen.

9/18/07 Say Yes!

Luke 1:38 I am the Lord's servant," Mary answered. "May it be to me as you have said." Then the angel left her.

Mary was young and most likely a bit scared but she knew her place with God. She believed, trusted, and loved Him with her whole heart/ She knew His will was greater than hers which is why she didn't doubt like Zechariah.

My faith and hope has to be like Marys. To not question or doubt in the least bit even when there is fear involved. God created me to stand firm on His word and promises with no doubt, fear, or trembling.

God,
you created me into a strong woman that is filled with your spirit and truth. I trust in your will for my life and say yes to everything you have for me. Be clear with me because I need to know you better. I am your daughter. I love you, Amen.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

9/13/07 Desires Met

Proverbs 13:19 A longing fulfilled is sweet to the soul, but fools detest turning from evil.

God enjoys it when our desires are me. He likes to do things in HIs time even if that means making us wait. But God wants to see what we will do and how we will react during our wait.

God makes us wait for things for certain reasons. One is to show our true character. Am I willing to stick it out or will I give up in the first trial? Another reason is to see if that thing is worth waiting for. God brings things, wants in our lives to expose our hearts and true selves.

Lord,
show me how to wait graciously. I can go and live the world life but I know I would be miserable without oyou. Stay close to me and guide me on the right path. Show me where to go and what to do. I love you. Amen

9/11/07 No Compromise

Daniel 1:5,17 The king assigned them a daily amount of food and wine from the king's table. They were to be trained for three years, and after that they were to enter the king's service. 17 To these four young men God gave knowledge and understanding of all kinds of literature and learning. And Daniel could understand visions and dreams of all kinds.

The knig knew how to train soilders and needed the sufficient time to do it. He knew what to feed them, what physical excercises they had to do. How to build them up but Daniel and his 3 friends knew better. They worshipped God and didn't want to compromise themselves for the world.

When I comrpomise myself for the world I become less of a person. God can't use me and give me what He has in store for me. I need to stand for what I believe in and make sure I do it right. When I do things right before God than He will give me over and above what I have or need.

God, give me the strength and words to stand up for you. I never want to defile your word or law in my life. Help me to know you better and close to my heart. I need your power in my life everyday to make the right choices and to follow the right path. Make things clear to me in every area of my life.
I love you Amen.

Monday, September 10, 2007

It is you

Lamentations 3:22-27. 30-32, 35-36, 58-59
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassion never fail. 23 They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. 24 I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him." 25 The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; 26 it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord. 27 It is good for a man to bear the yoke while he is young. 30 Let him offer his cheek to one who would strike him, and let him be filled with disgrace. 31 For men are not cast off by the Lord forever. 32 Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. 35 to deny a man his rights before the Most High, 36 to deprive a man of justice-- would not the Lord see such things? 58 O Lord, you took up my case; you redeemed my life. 59 You have seen, O Lord, the wrong done to me. Uphold my cause!

Jeremiah wrote this lament b/c he couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't pretend to be strong any longer. Jeremiah was human and felt a desperation to cry out to God and confess what was truly going on inside of Him. He was also a man of hope. Hope for a better future. A man of waiting for the vengeance of God through his affliction.

Jeremiah is an example for me to follow. In the negative he saw the promise of God. He knew the power of God. The hope of God. The compassion of God. The mercy of God. God will put everything in order as He did 2000+ years ago. In my little life, God will and is paying attention to the details. My hope and trust has to be in God in the good and bad. Especially the bad.

Father,
you know my heart and I know your promises. My heart and everything in it is in your hands. Keep it safe adn I will wait on you and your timing. I will keep following you and waiting for a better tomorrow. You are my God and my love. It is you Always.
I love you. Amen

9/7/07 My all in all

Revelation 12:10 Then I heard a loud voice in heaven say: "Now have come the salvation and the power and the kingdom of our God, and the authority of his Christ. For the accuser of our brothers, who accuses them before our God day and night, has been hurled down.

The devil wants to always point fingers. He is mad that we have the salvation of Christ and decide to live in this holy way. He tries to bring us down so we can kill ourselves off. And even though we think God is not listening or even there, His time to hurl the back to hell is perfect and strategic.

My power is in Christ. I believe and live in the salvation that is in me. I have the authority of Christ and choose to live the Godly life ad the enemy is mad. God makes me go through things for a purpose and I choose to remain surprised each day b/c God will hurl the enemy out of my path when it most hurts him.

Lord,
I trust un your timing. I can only see with my human eyes but I know there is more going on spiritually. I hold on to your promises and word and know you will never leave me nor forsake me. You truly are my all in all.
I love you. Amen.

9/6/07 Cut me Down

Ezekiel 31:10-12 "'Therefore this is what the Sovereign Lord says: Because it towered on high, lifting its top above the thick foliage, and because it was proud of its height, 11I handed it over to the ruler of the nations, for him to deal with according to its wickedness. I cast it aside, 12and the most ruthless of foreign nations cut it down and left it. Its boughs fell on the mountains and in all the valleys; its branches lay broken in all the ravines of the land. All the nations of the earth came out from under its shade and left it.

God makes it clear that He is looking at everything and everyone. He is looking at our hearts and attitudes. And if I am not right and think too highly of myself He will cut me right down. I believe His mercy is greater that in was in the OT, but His thoughts on pride haven't changed.

No matter what position I'm in or who my name is, there is always someone bigger than me. If I raise myself up then God will tear me down b/c He is the one who wants to lift us up and make us big. Its not from our own efforts, its from Him.

God,
keep me humble before you. I want to remain submitted to you and your word. Implant it in my mind and heart so I can share it with all people and show them your great power adn work on this earth. Than you for your hand of mercy and grace.
I love you. Amen

9/5/07 My Examiner

Proverbs 5:21
For a man's ways are in full view of the Lord, and he examines all his paths.

God knows where I'm going. He knows where I've been and how I got there. He knows how I'll get to my future and He doesn't just look, He examines and makes sure its right.

I can't trick God or think left and go right. My ways are before Him and He is examining them very carefully. Whatever path I choose, my heart needs to be right b/c then the blessings will come.

Father,
you are my examiner. Search me and take out whats wrong. Use me for good purposes and rebuke my enemies. Take care of your daughter for I always need your help. I love you. Amen

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

I'm not a Waste

Revelation 9:6 During those days men will seek death, but will not find it; they will long to die, but death will elude them.

The end times will be horrific for those that don't turn to God. Some people think life right now is hard enough and they kill themselves so easily. But God will not allow people to escape their disbelief. Even after many signs people still won't believe, but God will keep trying and make them face their disbelief and won't allow them to sin by killing themselves.

Life can be extremely hard. So many things can happen at once which makes us feel that life isn't worth it. I live for Him and that gives me motive enough to keep going and never give up. I don't want to come to a point in life where i just want to give up on everything. I find that to be a waste. And my life is not a waste. God gives me the strength and might to keep going and never feel like giving up on tomorrow. Tomorrow will always be better than today.

Father,
You give me tomorrow. Whether its here on earth or with you in heaven. I won't give up on this life. You gave it to me and I will take it as a gift. You are my creator and I am your child. I will remain in faith to you and believing in yur word and love. Thank you for all you have given me. I love you. Amen.

Sunday, September 2, 2007

His Promises

Revelation 7:16-17 Never again will they hunger; never again will they thirst. The sun will not beat upon them, nor any scorching heat. 17 For the Lamb at the center of the throne will be their shepherd; he will lead them to springs of living water. And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes."

When we accept God, not only will He be with us in heaven but also on earth. What i need will not be only givin to me in heaven but on earth in abundance. God will protect me and guide me and use me on this terrible earth full of sin and perversion. I will no longer have to suffer.

God has promised me a better life. A life full of joy and comfort. He has promised that I no longer have to suffer. I no longer have to cry or hunger or thirst for anything cause He will give it to me. I will no longer burn in this hot earth, but will be shaded by His love and mercy.

Lord,
I need your direction. Your way needs to be clear to me. I don't know where to go anymore and all I want is peace. The world is gaining up on me and i just need you to intervene in the biggest way possible. Get involved, Get in the middle. BE my solution. I will remian seeking you. Forever. I love you. Amen.

8/29/07 "10x's more than before"

Revelation 2:19 I know your deeds, your love and faith, your service and perseverance, and that you are now doing more than you did at first.

God was going through the churches and affirming them but also rebuking them. God sees the true wrong and true right in His people. As a Father, God needs to treat us the same btu make sure we know what we need to change in the body because we could bring disease into the body.

God knows my heart and all that i do. He knows that today i work 10x's more than i did ever in my walk with Him. I keep going through the good and bad times believeing and having large faith that He will never let me down in my life and what i desire.

Father,
You are the only one that knows what really goes through my life and my heart. I trust in you for everything and i believe that you have everything under control and no matter what i trust in you. I love you. AMen.

8/23/07 "Tainted Love"

1 John 4:7-8,11-12,18
Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. 8 Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. 11 Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12 No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.18There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Its so easy to say "i love you" but its hard to mean it. God implanted love in us when He entered our hearts but the world is full of mistrust, hate, fear, pride, etc. and we become tainted with all its lies. It gets so bad that Christians start pointing fingers at their brothers and sisters and puts Gods love aside. Love is supposed to complete us and if anyone is not complete with that love they are not complete in God.

I want to love more. I have love and I share it in different ways but I want more love. I want to trust more in people and in God. I want to stop being afraid of the flesh because that means i trust in it and I don't.

God,
you are love and you are in me. So give me more of you. Take out anything the world wants to stir in me. I put my eyes on you and lead me on your path. You are in charge of my life and I leave it all in your hands. I love you. Amen.