Rage

Luke 13:6-9 Then he told this parable: "A man had a fig tree, planted in his vineyard, and he went to look for fruit on it, but did not find any.7.So he said to the man who took care of the vineyard, 'For three years now I've been coming to look for fruit on this fig tree and haven't found any. Cut it down! Why should it use up the soil?'8."'Sir,' the man replied, 'leave it alone for one more year, and I'll dig around it and fertilize it.9.If it bears fruit next year, fine! If not, then cut it down.'"

God is the owner; Jesus the farmer; we the tree.

Jesus is fighting for me to stay in the game. He wants me to bear fruit and prosper. It hasn't taken me 3 years but it has been a year that I have been dry and not bearing any fruit but Jesus is telling His father giver her a little more time, she can do it, let me work with her. I know i have let Jesus down a lot but I want to take this year to grow with fruit and color. I want to take this year and be different for Him. I don't want to approach 2009 and be in the same situation. I want to rise from the ashes.

"Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light" Dylan Thomas

Lord,
I want to rage at the close of day. My day is not over. I will rise once again, I will rise from the abyss that i fell in and move forward to your path step by step. Forgive me for my sinning transgressions because I am sick and tired of that life. I will fight against the evil in front of me.
I love you Always
Amen
P.S. Its time to Rage!

Core Center

Psalm 127:1-3 Unless the LORD builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain.2 In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat-- for he grants sleep to those he loves.3 Sons are a heritage from the Lord, children a reward from him.

Everything we do should be done with a spiritual purpose. People work and work and all they get is tired. But God says He will grant us rest as long as we put Him in the equation. He made us His children because we are a reward from Him. Which is why this life can't be taken lightly.

This week has been great. Besides the dumb drama, i have woken up at 7:30 and walk around and prayed and was able to do my journal without rushing. I believe its been a good time because I put God in the middle. He became my purpose to wake up and keep going. He became my center once again.

Jesus,
Stay in my core center. Become my equation. I don't want to go back to who I was. I don't like who I was and what I was doing. I like me today and help me remain that way. I am yours Lord and always will b forever yours. God - I love you so much I never want to be away from you. Forgive me and have compassion on your child.
I love you Always
Amen
P.S. I am Yours Always!

Time to eat

Luke 8:53-55 They laughed at him, knowing that she was dead.54 But he took her by the hand and said, "My child, get up!"55 Her spirit returned, and at once she stood up. Then Jesus told them to give her something to eat.

Jairus was desperate to do something for his child. Jesus was his only hope. He knew he found the right man when he said she was only sleeping. When He rose her from the dead He said get her something to eat (that's the only reference of eating when Jesus raises someone from the dead). I know there was no full Bible available but i think Jesus wanted her to eat of His body and what He had to offer.

When i rise from the dead God wants me to get closer to Him. He wants me to read the word, pray, fast, spread the word more than before. When Jesus said get her something to eat it wasn't natural food He was talking about, but spiritual food filled with compassion, joy, and kindness. Jesus wanted her life to be better than before. Just like ours when He raises us for the ashes.

Father,
Raise me from the ashes of the devils fire. Keep me away from his wickedness and lies. I am yours today and forever. Take my hand and use it for your glory. I thank you for your love and majesty, for your glory over my life. Forgive me for my sins and the sins of my fathers. I bring my life to you as a sacrifice. Use me.
I love you Always
Amen
P.S. I feel you with me right now

9/24/2008 Just Give up

Psalm 84:1-2 How lovely is your dwelling place, O LORD Almighty!2 My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God.

God constantly remains the same but we don't. Everyday something changes and we have to deal with it. Deal with the drama, the gossip, the hatred, the lies, the enemy. But that's the time when we should start giving up. Giving up ourselves and handing it over to God and give it back to Him. Everything that He has given to us just return it so He can put it all back in order.

v.10 Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked.

Just being close to God is my ultimate dream. I don't care if I'm cleaning toilets for Him, as long as I'm in His presence i all that matters. Being a garbage man in heaven is better than being a queen in hell. I never want to go back to hell or even close to it. I want to be near heaven as much as possible because not only my spirit longs for Him but my flesh is crawling to be with God.

Lord,
Thank you for your mercy upon my life. Thank you for forgiving me of my sins and loving me unconditionally. You are my everything and always will be. I bless you Father today, keep me close to you.
I love you Always
Amen
P.S. I feel you with me already, lets go conquer the world for You!

9/23/2008 Thank you for the Rain

Luke 6:46-49 "Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?47 I will show you what he is like who comes to me and hears my words and puts them into practice.48 He is like a man building a house, who dug down deep and laid the foundation on rock. When a flood came, the torrent struck that house but could not shake it, because it was well built.49 But the one who hears my words and does not put them into practice is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation. The moment the torrent struck that house, it collapsed and its destruction was complete."

Jesus was teaching numerous people the important basics of following Him. Jesus only had a short time to teach as many people as possible, everything that He knew about life and how to live a righteous way. Many people were still confused about the true meaning of Messiah and what it meant to call on God. Jesus was a teacher with clear objectives-in this passage He tells of two ways of living: with or without a foundation. To call Him Lord we need a foundation because without it we will fall flat on our faces during the storm.

Jesus was talking about storms because they are everywhere. I have a storm about every week or 2 weeks. The devil wants to wash me out but my foundation is in Christ no matter where I am at in my walk. I'm not perfect nor righteous but my God has mercy and forgiveness and compassion for my soul. My God loves me more than anything in the word which is why i keep going with Him.

Father,
I thank you for the rain. And providing me with your umbrella. I love you with all that I am and all you have made me to be. Make today God a beautiful day full of wonders and surprises. Create in me God a new heart - a heart that yearns and aches for you only. You are my all in all.
I love you Always
Amen
P.S. I feel my love growing as I write this to you

9/15/08 Must be set free

Revelation 20:2-3 He seized the dragon, that ancient serpent, who is the devil, or Satan, and bound him for a thousand years.
3.He threw him into the Abyss, and locked and sealed it over him, to keep him from deceiving the nations anymore until the thousand years were ended. After that, he must be set free for a short time.

The devil already knows his fate. People in this world are scared of whats coming next in life but Satan has read his future. He knows that all that he is doing now to torment us won't last forever. He is trying to do to us what God will do to him. He wants us in the abyss of hell and feel so down that we can't or won't get up. He wants us chained and locked in his hell because he knows God is going to do the same to him.

Satan leaves no one out of his hunt for prey. He wants God to suffer for His children and give up to Satan. But God already sealed Satans fate and even gave him a head start. but i have even done things the devil wants me to do. I have been to the abyss and been given over to my worldly desires. I really wish I was stronger so it didn't happen. But i know that its God who loves me; its God who sets me free; its God who breaks the chains; its God who has forgiven me.

20:10 And the devil, who deceived them, was thrown into the lake of burning sulfur, where the beast and the false prophet had been thrown. They will be tormented day and night for ever and ever.

God,
thank you for giving me the security that the devil will get his. I know you are a God of justice and everything he has done will be thrown back at him. I love you Lord because you first loved me. I am your instrument, forgive me for my weaknesses and all those times I fell into the abyss. You are my Savior.
I love you Always
Amen

9/5/08 Eat it

Revelation 10:9-11 So I went to the angel and asked him to give me the little scroll. He said to me, "Take it and eat it. It will turn your stomach sour, but in your mouth it will be as sweet as honey."
10.I took the little scroll from the angel's hand and ate it. It tasted as sweet as honey in my mouth, but when I had eaten it, my stomach turned sour.
11.Then I was told, "You must prophesy again about many peoples, nations, languages and kings."

John saw and heard many things during this time that God was revealing to him the revelation. But here is proof that not everything was written down for the future to know. God was still leaving some mystery for us so we can remain seeking Him.

Imagine an angel telling me to eat a scroll? Even if he said it would taste good. I believe that John had to eat that scroll because what he needed to prophesy was on that scroll. He had to have the prophesy in him to really give the people what God had for them.

Lord,
many people in the Bible saw strange things and did strange things. I sit here wondering if i would question you if you asked me to do them. My prayer today is that when you call me I will answer, no questions asked. I know who you are and how much you love me. I know I trust you, therefore call out to me and show me what i need to know to move on with you.
I love you Always
Amen

8/19/2008 What about Him?

John 21:21-22 When Peter saw him, he asked, "Lord, what about him?" 22Jesus answered, "If i want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me.

Peter was a great disciple but he was always worried about other people. Jesus cares about your relationship with HIm, one on one. He doesn't want people to worry about those around you but how strong your relationship is with Jesus.

I'm like Peter except I don't voice too much of my concerns. I look at others a lot more than I look at myself. Its time to stop looking around and start looking forward to the eyes of Christ and how i want to be with Him not how others view me with Him.

Lord,
I want a one on one everyday with You. My life is not my own therefore I need you to help me to stop worrying about others. Keep me focused on you and guide me to make the right decisions.
I love you Always,
Amen