I Can't be Perfect

Psalm 51:10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Psalm 34:4-6 I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.
5 Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame. 6 This poor man called, and the Lord heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles.

When serving God, He answers my cry when my heart is in the right place. God sees whats in the heart and wants to help those with a right heart. When a Pharisee would test Jesus, his heart was to see how far he could push Jesus. But someone like Mary Magdalene who needed Jesus with all her heart was heard by His ears.

I have to see out the Lord. I need to look for Him, search for His refuge. He has promised me peace, love, and joy but I have to look for it. I have to be the one who lays my whole heart on the line for Him. I can't just give Him 20% of me but my whole 100%. I have to be willing to give Him all that I have and all that I am. Without that God cannot and will not deliver me. Because if someone wants to change they have to be willing to change.

Matthew 5:44-46,48
But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that?

Lord,
I know you ask e to be perfect and I also know that's impossible. But I want to be better everyday. I want to know, hear, and see more of you. I need more of you. I sometimes don't know if I'm doing the right thing and I need more of your touch. Come touch my hear Father, touch my life. I need you more than ever. I am hungry for you God and ready for what you have to throw at me Lord. Show me the areas I need to change, but I ask be clear with me. I need to know its you 100%.
I love you Always, Amen.

What is God to me today?

Psalm 51:10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Psalm 59:16-17 But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. 17 O my Strength, I sing praise to you; you, O God, are my fortress, my loving God.

God has many names to Him. The usual ones are Lord, Father but He is more than that. Being God comes being everything I need. David needed more out of God than a Father, he needed power, strength, and safety. At that moment God to him was him fortress, strength, and refuge.

What is God to me today? What do I need Him to be at this moment? Right now I need Him to be my friend, my ears, my eyes. I need Him to see what I can't see; to hear what i can't hear; to know what i don't know. Today I need God to be my food. I am starving for Him and I want to be filled with what He has. I want more, more, more.

Matthew 4:4
Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'"

Lord,
Thank you for never leaving me. No matter what I've done or where I've been you never stay away. Renew me Lord every morning and make me into that person you believe in. I love you God and wouldn't be here without you. You are my all in all.
I love you always, Amen.