The Now

Revelation 21:1-2 Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. 2. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband.

John saw the future as God showed him. He described a place full of worship and joy. A place where its God all the time - no wasted time - no broken hearts - no guilt or shame. But before the new church is revealed we have to go through the earth now. And the now will pass away as quickly as it came.

"...Amen. Come, Lord Jesus" (22:20)

This year (2008) is the old earth. It was full of pain, suffering, joys, heart break, passion, work, sweat, sin, smiles, depression, and love. But whether good or bad there is one thing that remained: God. Whether i thought He left or took a break, He didn't. Whether i prayed or journaled, He was still there through every happy or sad moment. He met me through the pain and the worship. He knows my heart, He knows whats going on - How I really feel and still wants to be with me.

Lord,
Sometimes I don't understand why you keep hanging on and i may never understand but with your majesty and love keep holding me. You are my Savior and King, my love and Father, my best friend - You are m heart. Keep it beating God through this new year of new revelations and findings. You are peace to this world and the answer to all.

I forever love you
Amen

All For Me

Titus 3:3-7 3At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. 4But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, 5he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, 6whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, 7so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life.

Jesus, since before creation knew what He was going to do for us. He knew that no matter what bad thing we did we could be saved.

I am saved by what Jesus did for me, not for anything I have done. Not the hours of prayer, the tears, the reading, or any nice thing, but its because of Gods mercy upon me. Because He has decided to do that for me. Its because God wants us to have that stuff: the kingdom, His treasures. He is the ultimate Father. The father that has done things i still don't know about because of the mercy and grace He holds with Him.

Lord,
Show me your grace. The mercy you have is indescribable - its untouchable - its impossible in my eyes - but you have made it reachable - tangible and worthy for me to see it. Only you can make grace something i can touch and physically see. Only you God.
I love you Always
Amen

12/6/08 Broken Storm

Philippians 2:6-8 Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,7. but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. 8. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death-

Jesus was human yet divine at the same time. He wasn't above God, but is God and equal to Him. Does this make sense? No. Does it have to? No. But when Jesus became human he left his position in power and didn't even use it when he could have. He became the worst to understand our torments as humans.

Jesus is not who we make him out to be. He's not what we say He is because there is so much about him that we don't understand. He's not a huge being tats super far adn too busy. He's approachable and likeable because he's human. He may have been perfect but he also went through the junk we do.

Jesus Loves Me. He really does. He wants me to be happy and to stop torturing myself.

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
The water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you, everything would be alright
If I see you this darkness will turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cos I'm so used to living under the surface

If I could just see you, everything would be alright
If I see you this darkness will turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

And I will walk on water
You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
Now everything is alright
Everything's alright.


Lord,
Get me out of this broken storm. Help me to choose the right path. Make things clear for me. I want to be in your light and shine for you. Grant me peace and mercy with you.
I love you Always
Amen.