Keep me Mature

Mark 7:15 Nothing outside a man can make him 'unclean' by going into him. Rather, it is what comes out of a man that makes him 'unclean.

During the time Jesus was trying to teach the people He had to change their way of thinking. In the Old Testament there were many rules and regulations which many people were still living by even though it happened hundreds of years ago. Jesus wanted them to know it wasn't about what they ate or heard that was important but it was what they said and did that mattered.

Yes, God is included in the details of my life and wants to know the ins and outs but whats important to Him is how i react to things, how i live my life, how i present myself. Its what comes out of me that's in my heart which is why its so important. Whatever feelings are in my heart is how i will present God. If i am bitter, angry, prideful, jealous then that's how God will be seen through me. But if i act in love, joy, gratefulness and forgiveness than That's how God will be seen through me. I am an instrument for Him to be used for Him and by Him therefore I have to be wise about what I let out of my mouth and body.

Lord,
Give me the wisdom to be a mature woman. I want to live according to your will even though it is extremely hard at time, help me to see things through your eyes because i can say things out of frustration. Forgive me for not wholly trusting you in my life and heart. Have mercy on me and keep me in your service.
I forever love you
Amen

2/24/09 My Stomach Hurts

Mark 3:23-26 So Jesus called them and spoke to them in parables: "How can Satan drive out Satan? 24. If a kingdom is divided against itself, that kingdom cannot stand. 25. If a house is divided against itself, that house cannot stand. 26. And if Satan opposes himself and is divided, he cannot stand; his end has come.

Satan became satan because he was divided with God. Heaven couldn't stand if satan remained which is why he was kicked out. When we enter a place and there is a head we need to obey their rules because we are in their place not our own. When we enter Gods kingdom its his rules we obey because He is the head. Wherever we go, we are under the heads control.

When i enter a place there is a certain law i need to abide by. That's why its important for me to know what i am entering into. And not just into buildings but into relationships as well. Is the person i will be with on my same level? Can we abide by each others rules? Will we be divided? As i get older i have to be careful with who i get myself involved with because if we do become divided than i as the woman will get hurt more because of my emotions. And not even a divided heart can stand firm.

Lord,
My stomach hurts and I'm tired. Tired of thinking, wondering, hoping, dreaming. I really want to know what I'm supposed to do or even who I'm supposed to be with. Father, my request today as i am fasting this week is to clear my mind of the worlds lies and to help me stand in truth. I have patience but i need some help from you to remain patient. i trust you in my heart. So remain there.
I forever love you
Amen

God is good to me

Psalm 13:2-3 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? 3 Look on me and answer, O LORD my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;

David knew what was coming to him. He knew the anxiety in his heart was real and just wanted it to stop. The only way he knew to stop how he felt emotionally was to give it over to God.

There is an enemy that is taking over me and I am the only one who can conquer it. The enemy is myself, my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions, My heart is whats taking over me and making me think of things that don't really matter. Because my focus should constantly be on God. I can be suffering from a broken heart but i don't have to torment myself to the point that its all i think about. i know i am worth more and God has made me more than a conqueror.

v.5-6 But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. 6 I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.

Human don't think on Gods level and God has and always will be good to me. So through my constant thoughts and the sorrow of what i don't have but want i will rejoice and sing because God is good to me.

Father,
You are good. You're good to me and i can always count on you being a good man. I know you love me and have the best for me. I will praise you through the sorrow and pain because you will change it to joy and blessings. Only you know my heart. So keep it safe and guarded.
I forever love you
Amen

Even when it hurts

Psalm 15:4b "...who keeps his oath even when it hurts"

David was asking God who may dwell in His sanctuary and live on His holy hill. And God gave David revelation. Some revelation was apparent: 1. whose walk is blameless 2. who speaks the truth 3. no slander 4. does neighbor no wrong 5. despises a vile man 6. honors those fear the Lord 7. lends his money 8. does not accept a bribery

Even with all those things there is one i couldn't pass - he who keeps his oath even when it hurts. So many people break their word because its easier and more convenient for them. But God doesn't like us to break our covenants. The words that come out of our mouth are the words that from our hearts. So when our mouths lie, they stem from our heart.

I know many people lie and I'm one of them. I want people to be honest with me and even expect it but how hard am i when i don't keep my oath? So many times I found myself caught in something where it would be easier to lie, but that's why God has made it so important to follow and a commandment to follow to get into His kingdom because sometimes it does hurt and the world is not used to truth Sayers. So its up to us to be that difference.

Father,
I don't want to lose my oath. I don't want to be a person who lies out of convenience. Help me today and everyday to tell the truth. Keep me in check to do the right things before you. I want to walk on your guided path. Keep me straight in every way in my life.
I forever love you
Amen

Revive my soul

Psalm 19:7 The law of the LORD is perfect, reviving the soul. The statutes of the LORD are trustworthy, making wise the simple.

David was a man after Gods heart so he knew how to get closer to God. His laws were to be followed because they not only help us do His will but like David said they revive the soul and give joy to the heart. Gods laws are not for us to just live by but to have joy from them. They bring life where we are dead.

v. 8-9 The precepts of the LORD are right, giving joy to the heart. The commands of the LORD are radiant, giving light to the eyes. 9 The fear of the LORD is pure, enduring forever. The ordinances of the LORD are sure and altogether righteous.

When i obey the Lord I'm not just being an obedient servant but I'm bringing joy to my heart. I'm allowing the Holy Spirit to bring his fruits in me. Life can bring disappointments and i can sit and allow them to take over but when i obey God that sorrow will turn into joy, into a revived soul, light, into radiance.So every time i feel down i know i just have to come back to God because He takes care of His servants and children.

v. 11 By them is your servant warned; in keeping them there is great reward.

Lord,
i know what to do now. I have been down and not following you. But you bring me joy and i will follow your laws to revive my soul. You are the radiance in my eyes and the peace in my heart.
I forever love you
Amen

1/30/09 Delegate

Acts 6:3-4 "Brothers, choose seven men from among you who are known to be full of the Spirit and wisdom. We will turn this responsibility over to them 4and will give our attention to prayer and the ministry of the word."

The twelve saw what Jesus did when He ministered, he delegated. And with many people around they were able to choose the right people to help them.

Being in the ministry it's so easy to get caught up doing the little things because you really want them done right. So instead of allowing others to help I just pressure myself and do it alone. I know to be someone in the word and prayer i need to start delegating cause my ministry will suffer and my spiritual life as well. God didn't call me as an administration pastor. I can't be doing the tedious stuff when i have so many people around me that can help.

Lord,
Help me to be a better delegator with my work. Give me the ability to reach out to others so I can be closer to you.
I forever love you
Amen

1/28/09 Save Me

Acts 4:12 "Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved."

Peter and John were starting their life without Christ and had been filled with the Holy Spirit. Through everything that had happened their faith and strength was stronger than ever. The people knew they had Jesus and once again wanted them to stop working their miracles.

People will see what I do and will want me to stop because they don't understand the fullness of Christ. Just like Peter and John I know where my salvation comes from. And its not only Salvation but my hope, my worth, my faith, and my strength.

Lord,
Your name of Jesus Christ has and will save this world. You saved me from the enemy, from more pain and suffering. I ask Father that you save me today from my thoughts. Make me free from my own entrapment.
I forever love you
Amen