Melissa's Life Journal

I love God more than anything in this world. I am not perfect and mess up from time to time. Though my heart is true and He knows it.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

June 18- Some people have real problems

Colossians 4:2-3 Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. 3 And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains.

Everytime we're in prayer the first person we pray for is ourselves. Than we pray so much for ourselves we get tired and forget other prayers. God knows our hearts and has made us in a specific way. What He wants is to forget our needs for a second and think about those with real problems.

My problems are real to me and I suffer in a way that my neighbor may not suffer. But God still wants me to think about those around me whether their issues are smaller or bigger. My duty as a Christian and to be Christ like is to push me aside and put others ahead not only in public but in private as well. It's not always what others see but what God sees when others aren't looking.

Father,
Lately I've been selfish trying to fix my issues and not thinking about those around me. Lord, give me the heart to remember those less fortunate even if they are thousands of miles away. Give me the strength to keep going forward because I know you are the light at the end of my tunnel.
I love you Always,
Amen

June 17- Not Earthly Things

Colossians 3:5-7Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry.6 Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. 7 You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived.

Being Single Paul knew the things men felt and essentially wanted. He knew the struggles of the inner man and knew how easy it was to fall into that trap. He didn't want the people of Colosse to be another church fallen into earthly sins when Paul could've given them easy rules to live by.

Colossians 3:2 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.
Being young and single its hard to keep the earthly man inside. Its easy to remind myself that God will judge me but in the moment, thats not what I am thinking about. God tells me to set my mind on His word and His things because thats a strong weapon. I can set my mind on the right things and have a better life. My mind can determine my future as long as i think and know i can change than i can. I have to make Gods thoughts my thoughts. ANd when I do that I'll have success.

Lord,
you know my inner thoughts and feelings. You know my true heart. My mind is yours, help me to keep my thoughts on you forever. Forgive me God when I have forgotten about you. When i have forgotten aboput your word. Put in me a clean heart oh God and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
I love you Always,
Amen

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Same Love

Philippians 2:1-2 If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2 then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose.

Paul knew what it was like to feel the presence of God. Even when it was a small sign like the feeling of joy or peace he knew God was alive and close. And with the big signs and little signs Paul wanted everyone to work in one spirit and purpose.

Philippians 2:12-13 Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed--not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence--continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, 13 for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.

Sometimes when i meet someone or go to a conference and learn something that changes my life, I don't want to leave or when I'm going through a hard time I want to go back. But God isn't present in specific places, He is everywhere. And my salvation is a process - it doesn't reach the highest levek than everything is perfect. Every day I struggle and I have to work out my salvation through them - making sure I don't lose my cool or my testimony.

Father,
Your will is what I strive for. Your purpose is what I desperately want for me. ONly You know my next step and where I am going. Above it all I want to live in fear of You. I want to bow down to your feet and hear your voice. I want to feel your breath over me and your peace surround me. Lord, I know your alive and with me and in that I will be continuously happy because I will never be alone.
I love you Always
Amen

Monday, June 9, 2008

Fear God always

Ecclesiastes 12:13-14 Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. 14 For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil.

Solomon was a man who was the wisest of them all. But even so, he was still a man. Going through struggles just like I am. And above all else, he found what he and I need to eventually do, "Fear God and keep His commandments" that's what it all comes down to. We could truly fear Him by putting His law in our hearts and letting it take us over or vainly fear Him and having His law in our minds - forgetting and remembering at our pleasure. Whichever it is Fear God is the whole duty of man - The reason of my existence.

Psalm 94:18-19 When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O Lord, supported me. 19
When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my sou
l.

I sometimes go through things and have no idea what to do. Before this journal I asked God "tell me what to do!" And till this day I expect God to show Me a clear cut answer and when I don't get one I get even more confused. And I thought I didn't get one till now. Whatever I'm going through even if I don't know what the next step is all I have to do is Fear God and keep His commandments. And He will rescue me once I do that because that's what He has called me to do forever and always.

God-
There are times when I don't understand your message to me. And I don't know where to go. But above it all I will fear you and keep your commandments. That's is my duty - that's is why I am here. It is for you and only you everything is just extra. But you are my whole. Lord, keep talking to me - keep me close and let your love shine through me. Thank you for your unconditional love today and always. I believe in your call for me.
I love you Always
Amen