Through Gods Eyes

2 Samuel 6; 1 Chronicles 13; Psalm 68; Matthew 17

2 Samuel 6:20-22 When David returned home to bless his household, Michal daughter of Saul came out to meet him and said, "How the king of Israel has distinguished himself today, disrobing in the sight of the slave girls of his servants as any vulgar fellow would!"

²¹ David said to Michal, "It was before the LORD, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the LORD's people Israel—I will celebrate before the LORD. ²² I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes. But by these slave girls you spoke of, I will be held in honor."

While David was growing up, he loved to be alone worshipping God in his own element. No one was around to tell him what was a good or bad way to praise God. Not even God told him what was right or wrong, because David opened his heart and worshipped God with everything in it and that was all that mattered to God. Michal was used to a more confined way of worship, a modest and quiet prayer to the Lord, which still isn't wrong either. Yet when these two worlds clash and judgement is involved than that's when things get wrong.

Michal was embarrassed by the way David was worshipping God, especially because he got naked in front of people. As a wife it is OK to have concerns when a your own husband is disrobing in front of others, especially other women, however David was being vulnerable and weak in human eyes but if Michal would have looked through her spiritual eyes, she would have seen a man acting like a happy child praising his God.

Judging others is an ugly road to walk on. The reason we do judge is because we are looking through our worldly eyes and not our spiritual eyes. We see things that are not acceptable in the world but forget that the Lord loves the weak, the broken, the lost. Those are his people and He only have love and compassion for them. And I need to put on my spiritual eyes and start seeing the world through them. Not looking at things in the surface but the heart of the people, why they are doing what they are doing; acting the way they are acting; being who they are being. When I look through Gods eyes I will see more than a naked man or woman I will see their heart and who they truly are.

Lord,
Thank you for allowing me to see through your eyes. The world tries to force their views and thoughts upon me, but through the darkness God you shine your light upon me. You are my lamp through this dark place and only you can make me into a child once again.
I forever love you always
Amen

Intricate Stitch

2 Samuel 4-5; Psalm 139; Matthew 16

Psalm 139 O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.

² You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

³ You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

⁴ Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

⁵ You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, ^a]">[a] you are there.

⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

¹¹ If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

¹² even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

¹³ For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

¹⁶ your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

¹⁷ How precious to ^b]">[b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

¹⁸ Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

¹⁹ If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

²⁰ They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

²¹ Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

²² I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

²⁴ See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

David was a man after Gods own heart. What that means is that he searched for God and His word; everything that it meant, what God wanted Him to know and how He wanted David to live. In this Psalm David was searching how God created him. He discovered that it was an intricate process, it was delicate with much thought and time.

God didn't create us by a touch of the button, but one by one made us different not only on the outside but on the inside as well. Like sewing clothes, each stitch God knows about, each hemline that is off, each crumple of the fabric, each color that is off, each short sleeved, bad cuff, too tight, too loose. When fabric falls off He knows, even when we don't. He knows when someone pulls at the cloth and damages it. He knows when a part is destroyed or hurt.

At times I think God is not there and wonder where He could've gone. But I'm the one whose wrong. God has never gone anywhere I just stopped searching. I stopped looking for Him, He's just been waiting for me to open my eyes. He created my voice, my eyes, my heart, my mind, my spirit, those things that i need to find Him. He knows my next move, my next word, my next thought and still loves me....

Lord, Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being there for me and never leaving my side even when i forgot to look for you. I know that you are the One who will always be here and never leave me. I know you love me so much that i cannot even fathom that love. But i will receive it all the days of my life. I forever love you always. Amen

This is My Kingdom

2 Samuel 3; 1 Chronicles 12; Matthew 15

2 Samuel 3:39 And today, though I am the anointed king, I am weak, and these sons of Zeruiah are too strong for me. May the LORD repay the evildoer according to his evil deeds!"

David wanted to be a peaceful yet just king. Right before this he had sent away Abner in peace. Yet for the sins of Abners past, he was killed on his way back home. When David heard about this he was distressed and sad because he didn't want any more unnecessary killing, especially in his kingdom. And David admitted he was weak in that time because he realized even as king, people would take justice into their own hands.

There are people who take matters into their own hands. No matter what their authority wants, they want to control the situation. However, God appointed people to be in authority so there would be order in the country, and home. God appointed a mother and father over children's lives to show them order and discipline. Sometimes it works sometimes it doesn't. David was a king who didn't want his own people to be afraid of him, he wanted peace and order in his kingdom. He admitted he was weak not because he was a weak man, but because he was a strong man. He was strong because others might know his true feelings but he wasn't going to go down with a fight. He knew how strong the Lord was and knew that God would bring him justice to those who would try to ruin his kingdom.

I need to be a person that doesn't allow others to try and take away the order from my kingdom. If i want order or confusion than i will allow either. But my strength needs to be in the Lord to lift me up and give me strength when i most need it.

Lord,
thank you for your strength. I know i need more of it everyday to be that woman you have called me to be. You are my Father and i should be more like you. I need order in my life and need to put things in the right places. I know you are teaching me things everyday and I want to listen to you. Forgive me when i shut my ears to your words.
I forever love you always
Amen

Brotherhood

2 Samuel 1; Psalm 140; Matthew 13

2 Samuel 1:26 I grieve for you, Jonathan my brother; you were very dear to me. Your love for me was wonderful, more wonderful than that of women.
David, during this time was grieving the death of his king and best friend. Jonathan wasn't only his best friend, but he was his right hand man. He was the one David went to talk to, his most trusted mate. He had a solid brotherhood with David and nothing, not even the evilness of his father could take that bond and love for one another away. Not even death.

There are people who find a soul mate in the same sex. But its nothing obscene, its pure holy friendship. The world has perverted a holy friendship to be designed for their own good. David, obviously loved women, but had a special connection with Jonathan that was called Brotherhood. Some people go through life never finding that one person they can run to without feeling judged or afraid. David was never afraid to tell Jonathan how he felt even if it was against his own father. Jonathan saw his fathers true colors and followed who the Lord wanted, not what the people wanted.

It is the best feeling when you come into a brotherhood with someone and can feel the trust and love. That is a Godly friendship. That is an appointed time and place when you meet someone that will be their for you for the rest of your life. I had a brotherhood with someone yet unfortunately it only lasted for a season. And I believe it was God appointed however I do believe that now my brotherhood is with God and that's the way He essentially wanted it.

Lord,
Thank you for your friendship. For listening to me and allowing to go to you without judgement or fear. You have always made me feel welcome and like i belonged with you. You have loved me from the beginning and I know you will never let me go.
I forever love you always
Amen

Whats the harm?

1 Samuel 24; 1 Chronicles 8; Psalm 57-58; Matthew 8

Psalm 57:2 I cry out to God Most High, to God, who fulfills {his purpose} for me.
God has a purpose for everyone. He has a path for each and every one of us to take. Whether we take it or not is our decision. There are people that you can tell straight away that they did not take Gods path and others who you know are following God. Rich or poor each one has a choice. King David had a choice. He was anointed by God to be the next king but he had to wait to Saul was dead. Now, he could have taken his own path and killed Saul himself, and still be anointed king. Or take Gods way and wait it out to see what happens. If you keep reading King David waited on God and gave him a great kingdom. Doing things Gods way gets you above and beyond what you can imagine. Doing things your way limits your mindset.

Matthew 8:2-3 A man with leprosy^a]">[a] came and knelt before him and said, "Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean." ³Jesus reached out his hand and touched the man. "I am willing," he said. "Be clean!" Immediately he was cured^b]">[b] of his leprosy.

The leprous man could have stayed the way he was. He could have suffered his whole life without knowing how it would feel again with normal skin. What is the harm of finding out what God can do for you? What bad can come out of asking God if He can heal you? Sometimes we have to be at the lowest of the low to finally reach out to God. And God will take you there just so you can seek Him.
I was in a depressive state, anorexic, no friends, when finally i reached out wholly and completely to God. No one understood what i was going through, No one tried to help until the last minute, No one knew what my heart and mind was going through, only God. And He was waiting for me. He was at the door waiting for me to ask Him inside and when i finally did, it was the best thing i ever could have done.

Lord,
Thank you for coming through that door and saving me. I know that i needed to ask you but you could have said no. You could have rejected me like everyone else but you saved me from a treacherous life full of hate and bitterness. Your strength covered my weakness and made me strong again. Thank you for loving me and knowing me when no one does.
I forever love you always
Amen

Who are you looking at?

1 Samuel 23; Psalm 31, 54; Matthew 7

1 Samuel 23:17-18 "Don't be afraid," he said. "My father Saul will not lay a hand on you. You will be king over Israel, and I will be second to you. Even my father Saul knows this." ¹⁸ The two of them made a covenant before the LORD. Then Jonathan went home, but David remained at Horesh.

Jonathan was introduced to God through his father Saul. Jonathan remained in the path of God but Saul decided to follow his own will. And the consequence was a strained father-son relationship. Jonathan went under the wing of David and became his second in command. Jonathan didn't want to follow who the world wanted but followed who God appointed. He knew that David was the king that God chose and left his family and commitments to follow the God that had shown Himself time and time again.
The Israelites saw God many times yet kept on doubting His grace, His mercy, His power and authority. But Jonathan followed the footsteps of Joshua and Caleb and knew which God he served.

Matthew 7:1-2 "Do not judge, or you too will be judged. ²For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

Jonathan could have stayed with his father and fought against David. He could have killed David many times, yet instead he didn't blame David. He didn't judge his friend for Gods plan, he embraced what the Lord was doing.
Many people in powerful positions sometimes get jealous and mad because other people are moving up in the world. Some people are threatened by others who can do better than them. Who are more creative, more hard working, and tend to judge those because of their own insecurities. But its time not to look at the talent the person has but what does God want to do with me?
I can't keep asking can that person take my job? Can that person do things better than me?
But instead what does God want to do with me here? God put ME in this position for a reason and i cannot stop till God wants me to. Which means I got to do the best that i can, the best that God has put in me. Its time to stop looking at others and time to keep my eyes on Him.

Lord,
Thank you for bringing me to this place in my life. I know without you i would be lost and unhappy. But with you I am perfect in your sight. You put in me talent and gifts that no one else has, you made me unique and different and i love you for that. Keep me in your path and continue to guide me to you.
I forever love you always
Amen

What will i be known for?

1 Samuel 18; 1 Chronicles 16; Psalm 11; Matthew 3

Matthew 3:10 The ax is already at the root of the trees, and every tree that does not produce good fruit will be cut down and thrown into the fire.
John the Baptist was a passionate man. He knew who God was and lived to do His will. He lived to spread the good news and wasn't afraid of what people thought. Many men through that time were like that, Paul, Peter, John, James. John the Baptists life was cut short but his legacy lived on. He was a man that bore good fruit therefore wasn't cut down from God. On the contrary he was most known for only one thing baptizing Jesus, but that one thing made him be the man we all know him for.

Some people think they have to do thing after thing for people to remember them. Those people try to live their lives pleasing others making sure other people see them and they are not ignored. But it is those people who produce bad fruit because they are only living for themselves. When someone lives for God and His will is when they will produce good fruit, that's when God will make a way and bring more things in their path.
I am not perfect and sometimes i don't do things that i should but when i do things for God i see what happens next, good things. I am happier, i can smile more, i talk more, i share more. With God and choosing to live with Him is where I am supposed to be.

Father,
Thank you for being in my path in life. I could have ignored you and your will for me but i chose to embrace it sometimes strong sometimes weak. But i am here for you, living for you, doing things for you, loving you. You are who keeps me going in life and keep pushing me further Lord, i know my life isn't over yet.
I forever love you always
Amen