Melissa's Life Journal

I love God more than anything in this world. I am not perfect and mess up from time to time. Though my heart is true and He knows it.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

June 18- Some people have real problems

Colossians 4:2-3 Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. 3 And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains.

Everytime we're in prayer the first person we pray for is ourselves. Than we pray so much for ourselves we get tired and forget other prayers. God knows our hearts and has made us in a specific way. What He wants is to forget our needs for a second and think about those with real problems.

My problems are real to me and I suffer in a way that my neighbor may not suffer. But God still wants me to think about those around me whether their issues are smaller or bigger. My duty as a Christian and to be Christ like is to push me aside and put others ahead not only in public but in private as well. It's not always what others see but what God sees when others aren't looking.

Father,
Lately I've been selfish trying to fix my issues and not thinking about those around me. Lord, give me the heart to remember those less fortunate even if they are thousands of miles away. Give me the strength to keep going forward because I know you are the light at the end of my tunnel.
I love you Always,
Amen

June 17- Not Earthly Things

Colossians 3:5-7Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry.6 Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. 7 You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived.

Being Single Paul knew the things men felt and essentially wanted. He knew the struggles of the inner man and knew how easy it was to fall into that trap. He didn't want the people of Colosse to be another church fallen into earthly sins when Paul could've given them easy rules to live by.

Colossians 3:2 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.
Being young and single its hard to keep the earthly man inside. Its easy to remind myself that God will judge me but in the moment, thats not what I am thinking about. God tells me to set my mind on His word and His things because thats a strong weapon. I can set my mind on the right things and have a better life. My mind can determine my future as long as i think and know i can change than i can. I have to make Gods thoughts my thoughts. ANd when I do that I'll have success.

Lord,
you know my inner thoughts and feelings. You know my true heart. My mind is yours, help me to keep my thoughts on you forever. Forgive me God when I have forgotten about you. When i have forgotten aboput your word. Put in me a clean heart oh God and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
I love you Always,
Amen

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Same Love

Philippians 2:1-2 If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2 then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose.

Paul knew what it was like to feel the presence of God. Even when it was a small sign like the feeling of joy or peace he knew God was alive and close. And with the big signs and little signs Paul wanted everyone to work in one spirit and purpose.

Philippians 2:12-13 Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed--not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence--continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, 13 for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.

Sometimes when i meet someone or go to a conference and learn something that changes my life, I don't want to leave or when I'm going through a hard time I want to go back. But God isn't present in specific places, He is everywhere. And my salvation is a process - it doesn't reach the highest levek than everything is perfect. Every day I struggle and I have to work out my salvation through them - making sure I don't lose my cool or my testimony.

Father,
Your will is what I strive for. Your purpose is what I desperately want for me. ONly You know my next step and where I am going. Above it all I want to live in fear of You. I want to bow down to your feet and hear your voice. I want to feel your breath over me and your peace surround me. Lord, I know your alive and with me and in that I will be continuously happy because I will never be alone.
I love you Always
Amen

Monday, June 9, 2008

Fear God always

Ecclesiastes 12:13-14 Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. 14 For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil.

Solomon was a man who was the wisest of them all. But even so, he was still a man. Going through struggles just like I am. And above all else, he found what he and I need to eventually do, "Fear God and keep His commandments" that's what it all comes down to. We could truly fear Him by putting His law in our hearts and letting it take us over or vainly fear Him and having His law in our minds - forgetting and remembering at our pleasure. Whichever it is Fear God is the whole duty of man - The reason of my existence.

Psalm 94:18-19 When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O Lord, supported me. 19
When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my sou
l.

I sometimes go through things and have no idea what to do. Before this journal I asked God "tell me what to do!" And till this day I expect God to show Me a clear cut answer and when I don't get one I get even more confused. And I thought I didn't get one till now. Whatever I'm going through even if I don't know what the next step is all I have to do is Fear God and keep His commandments. And He will rescue me once I do that because that's what He has called me to do forever and always.

God-
There are times when I don't understand your message to me. And I don't know where to go. But above it all I will fear you and keep your commandments. That's is my duty - that's is why I am here. It is for you and only you everything is just extra. But you are my whole. Lord, keep talking to me - keep me close and let your love shine through me. Thank you for your unconditional love today and always. I believe in your call for me.
I love you Always
Amen

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Guide me to whats Next

Proverbs 4:20-27 My son, pay attention to what I say; listen closely to my words. 21
Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; 22 for they are life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body. 23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. 24 Put away perversity from your mouth; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. 25 Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you. 26 Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm. 27 Do not swerve to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.

God gave us the 10 commandments to obey but He wasn't finished giving us ways to live. God used Solomon to bring wisdom to the people and me. He knew that giving us instruction directly from Him would start us on the right path. He wanted to be specific, so we can understand exactly what He was looking for. #1 God wants me to take care of my life and health. Gods word is life to my soul and food to my body without it i don't live. #2 I have to guard my heart from everything the enemy wants to do with it. If my heart is wrong so is the rest of me. #3 Whatever comes out my mouth is what I have inside. If my words are perverse - than so am I. #4 My eyes are what guides me to the next step. If I am blind to whats in front of me than I am blind to everything. #5 My feet are what keeps me leveled if they are not based strongly than I'll consistantly fall.

Proverbs 6:20-24 My son, keep your father's commands and do not forsake your mother's teaching. 21 Bind them upon your heart forever; fasten them around your neck.
22 When you walk, they will guide you; when you sleep, they will watch over you; when you awake, they will speak to you. 23 For these commands are a lamp, this teaching is a light, and the corrections of discipline are the way to life, 24 keeping you from the immoral woman, from the smooth tongue of the wayward wife.

Two chapters before God gave me what He wanted me to follow from Him and now He wants me to follow my parents teaching. Now my question as a 27 year old is how far does that go if you don't agree with everything? But also thats where maturity comes in on my part. I guess God is telling me to really be wise about the counsel i do follow because if i follow the wrong one than i could make the wrong life altering decision.


Romans 8:38-39 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Father,
I know that no matter yesterday, today or tommorow You will always love me for my heart and my love for you. Search me oh God and see how faithful I want to be and will be. Others may not understand but you do.
I love you Always, Amen

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Take out my Junk

Romans 2:!2 All who sin apart from the law will also perish apart from the law, and all who sin under the law will be judged by the law.

Romans 2:25 Circumcision has value if you observe the law, but if you break the law, you have become as though you had not been circumcised.

Paul's letter to the Romans is a direct one. These people needed help in their walk with God because of everything they were seeing everyday. Paul wanted to be clear with them and show them the reality of life. If someone claims they were saved yet broke Gods laws they were not under God anymore. And that's how we need to take this scripture. Paul is not talking about circumcision alone, but about all those things we do to please God.

Romans 2:29 No, a man is a Jew if he is one inwardly; and circumcision is circumcision of the heart, by the Spirit, not by the written code. Such a man's praise is not from men, but from God.

Whatever I do to please God needs to come from my heart or else it doesn't matter. All I do needs to be done in love or its nothing. God wants my offering; my sacrifice. All has to come from the inside of me because that's where God can see the real me instead of all the junk man sees on the outside.

Lord,
Show me your will to keep going on the right path. I know you love me and want me next to you. Speak to me clearly so i can be right in your eyes. I want the real me to shine instead of all the junk that's in me. Take away my junk and be real to me. Help me to see the truth in my life, the way you see it.
I love you Always, Amen

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

My hands are Empty

Psalm 19:12-13 Who can discern his errors? Forgive my hidden faults. 13
Keep your servant also from willful sins; may they not rule over me. Then will I be blameless, innocent of great transgression.

Psalm 30:6-7 When I felt secure, I said, "I will never be shaken." 7 O Lord, when you favored me, you made my mountain stand firm; but when you hid your face, I was dismayed.

There are times in my life that i go through seasons. Every season has a purpose - to get to the next season in success. I go throuhg certain things so God can try my heart to see where I stand. And when He knows I'm not ready for the next step He keeps me in that season until I am ready.

At one point in my life I knew that nothing could come against me. I was strong and ready for anything the devil through at me. but now, today, I feel like I walk on shaky ground. I feel like God has turned His face from me and I have to fend for myself. And I'm failing. I'm not doing the right things in His sight. I am "dismayed". Whenever a young girl or a friend comes to me with the same issue I give them words of encouragement. I tell them its not too late to turn to God. That they just have to ask for forgiveness and move on and stop doing their sin. But I am my worst enemy. It seems like I can't see myself the same way. But David gave an uplifting ending to the same thing he felt (v.12) that my heart may sing to you and not be silent; O Lord, my God, I will give you thanks forever

So no matter what I am going through or what I am doing I have to give thanks to my God. No matter how hard it is to see the joy in my sorrow - God will show it to me. As long as my heart sings only to Him forever.

Lord,
My hands are empty and my heart is down. I need you today more than yesterday. I need to see your face and hear your voice. Don;t turn away any longer. Show me the areas that I have to change. God, you give me life and breath which I am forever thankful for. Give me the strength to keep going in my walk that I choose the right path from this day forward. Forgive me of all sins in my heart and mind. I cannot hide anything from you. Cleanse me and Renew me today. Only you can do that.
I love you Always
Amen.